why do soldiers miss war?

One might expect to encounter in such a deeply philosophical work ruminations on the rightness or wrongness of the Iraq War, or of war itself. But that is not Beauchamp’s focus and probably never will be. From the hints he gives, one gets the sense that his feelings are mixed. But that is the terrain of another sort of writer. Beauchamp is less concerned with the questions of why we fight and whether we should—perhaps understanding that these are unanswerable—and more with how fighting teaches us something about how to live. This is a subject of surprisingly widespread relevance, and Did You Kill Anyone? is a sophisticated and soulful exploration of it from a writer who I suspect will be worth listening to for many years to come.

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